"If you tap into your true story, and share that, it resonates." -Michelle Obama, Oprah Interview
So I was thinking about how I was going to give my take on the whole John Gray interview debacle, but I decided against it. I came to the conclusion that I have already given that too much energy. I've got my own big fish to fry over here. The other day I told a couple of my co-workers that I didn't want to be a parent anymore. It may all be in my head, but I felt like they looked at me the same way I’m imagining you’re looking at your screen; with ultimate dismay and judgment. But hey, I said what I said and that's exactly what I meant at the time.
Allow me to explain, if you will. Throughout the years, every time I've felt like I had a grasp on this whole being a mother and co-parenting thing, something happens that knocks the wind out of me and bursts my super mom bubble. And, that has become more of the norm over the last few years. I'm just tired y'all. Now, don't get me wrong. I love my son, unconditionally and with my whole being, more than any other human in this world. I've watched my parents, and others, deal with the loss of a child/children and I cannot FATHOM being in that position. But, I also find myself googling the age limit for leaving a child at the fire station. So, if you hear of me taking a random trip to *Nebraska, you know that I have reached my wit's end. But seriously, this parenting journey has challenged me beyond any other life experience I've encountered. There are a few key components that I've decided to focus on, so that I won't go forward with sending the powers that be my mother resignation letter. Check them out.
As I work on these things, it doesn’t mean that I won’t have the moments when I long to lay down my mother hat and ride off into the sunset, but I’ll keep on pushing and stay encouraged in knowing that one day my son will appreciate his mother and become a man greater than I could have ever imagined.
*In 2008, under the Safe Haven Law, Nebraska allowed parents to submit their children to custody up to the age of 18. The law was quickly revised because there was an influx of parents dropping off their older children.