"If you tap into your true story, and share that, it resonates." -Michelle Obama, Oprah Interview
So I was thinking about how I was going to give my take on the whole John Gray interview debacle, but I decided against it. I came to the conclusion that I have already given that too much energy. I've got my own big fish to fry over here. The other day I told a couple of my co-workers that I didn't want to be a parent anymore. It may all be in my head, but I felt like they looked at me the same way I’m imagining you’re looking at your screen; with ultimate dismay and judgment. But hey, I said what I said and that's exactly what I meant at the time.
Allow me to explain, if you will. Throughout the years, every time I've felt like I had a grasp on this whole being a mother and co-parenting thing, something happens that knocks the wind out of me and bursts my super mom bubble. And, that has become more of the norm over the last few years. I'm just tired y'all. Now, don't get me wrong. I love my son, unconditionally and with my whole being, more than any other human in this world. I've watched my parents, and others, deal with the loss of a child/children and I cannot FATHOM being in that position. But, I also find myself googling the age limit for leaving a child at the fire station. So, if you hear of me taking a random trip to *Nebraska, you know that I have reached my wit's end. But seriously, this parenting journey has challenged me beyond any other life experience I've encountered. There are a few key components that I've decided to focus on, so that I won't go forward with sending the powers that be my mother resignation letter. Check them out.
As I work on these things, it doesn’t mean that I won’t have the moments when I long to lay down my mother hat and ride off into the sunset, but I’ll keep on pushing and stay encouraged in knowing that one day my son will appreciate his mother and become a man greater than I could have ever imagined.
*In 2008, under the Safe Haven Law, Nebraska allowed parents to submit their children to custody up to the age of 18. The law was quickly revised because there was an influx of parents dropping off their older children.
11/13/2018 2 Comments
At a Loss
So I was thinking about how I’ve had a severe case of writer’s block lately. I just haven’t been able to come up with subject matters that I deem worth writing about. And, when I HAVE thought of something, it has been a daunting task trying to put the right words together to form a complete and coherent thought. Then, there have been other times where, in addition to the aforementioned factors, I’ve also thought that I shouldn’t write about trivial things, due to the seriousness of events that have taken place in the world as of late regarding politics, wildfires, shootings, and other turmoil.
Going forward, I’m going to push my way through. I can’t let the circumstances of life stifle me. I need to use my voice and be a light in these dark times. I want to spread love, laughter, and hope. That’s what we need!
11/5/2018 1 Comment
So I was thinking about my church’s women’s ministry event I attended Saturday. It was a great time of food, fellowship, learning, and reflection. My good friend, Amber, who is the First Lady and leader of the women’s ministry, spoke to us about forgiveness. It was such a good teaching and one I didn’t realize I needed to hear. I’m going to share a few of the points and hopefully some of these gems will help you like they did me!
We learned what forgiveness is and is not. Amber pointed out that many times we mistake reconciliation and trust for forgiveness and that isn’t what it is. She gave us this definition: forgiveness is letting go of the anger, bitterness, resentment, and the desire for vengeance or retaliation toward the person who offended you.
Next, we learned five reasons why we need to forgive.
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