A Penny for Your Thoughts

So I was thinking about a plethora of things, so much that I forgot to prepare a post for last Wednesday. I started to beat myself up about it because of the commitment I made to consistency for this year. I quickly put the whip down and gave myself grace when I remembered that I have published at least 2 extra posts since I started, so it balances out. 
There's so much, I don't even know where to start or how to start or if I should even start. How much should I/do I want/need to share?? Is there a limit to my transparency??? I'll just let my fingers do the talking and see where they land.

• So I was thinking about all the irons I have in the fire. Chile. I am doing the absolute most right now and I'm wondering if I've taken on too much. However, I feel like everything I'm doing MUST be done...RIGHT NOW. Jesus be a safe energy drink. 🙏🏾 
• So I was thinking about my age. I will be 60 in a little over 18 years. I don't know what made this particular detail of the thought cross my mind, but it freaked me out when it did!
• So I was thinking about my future. Will I accomplish all the things I've set out to do? Will I have the impact that I hope?? Will I have the success I desire??? Will I meet Usher and Oprah? (I was cracking up as I typed that last one but all of these are real thoughts!) Oh and no matter what the future holds, will I endure it alone or with companionship?
• So I was thinking about vacations. I'm longing to lie out in the sun on a beach or by a pool next to the swim-up bar. I look forward to doing more international travel and I've been having a strong urge to visit Amsterdam...
• So I was thinking about my son's future. I'm nervous and trembling and hopeful and guilt-ridden and prayerful and frightened and confused and wishing I was clairvoyant and and and 
• So I was thinking about death. How it surrounds me. How it's guaranteed, unavoidable, inevitable, and expected, but still catches you off guard regardless of the mode or time.

Add that to thinking about the weather, COVID pounds, what I'm going to read next, what I'm going to watch next, all the things I might be able to do to make money, how much money I need, how I'm going to boost my credit, my purpose, my mistakes, grammar, what REALLY went down at Cynthia Bailey's bachelorette party, where I can get the cheapest gas, the crab cake slider at White Castle, the age, height, birth place, number of marriages, death date/cause, etc of every person I can think of in pop culture, being Black, Kimye, and the list goes on. My head is spinning. 
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Sooooooooo...what are YOU thinking??